And Ariana nods. She understands that far better than she wishes she did. "No, it won't. Sooner or later, things get loose and bad things happen..." She trails off for a moment, thinking back.
Mother had been determined that if she wouldn't be a witch, she'd couldn't ever be anything else either... she had to be hidden and shut away because she was 'not well'. Ariana had seen the resentment Kendra pretended not to have - blaming her because Father had left. Because he'd hurt those Muggle boys. It's not like she wanted him to do that. She knew they were right to be afraid. After all, if there wasn't anything to be afraid of, her mother wouldn't have ended up dead. If she weren't a monster, they wouldn't have kept her confined like one. It's only in this place that she has a chance to be anything else. It's her magic that's bad and wrong, and here she can be rid of it.
"They kept me locked away at home, because they knew it was bad... even when they lied to me and said it wasn't. And after Mother died..." That Gellert boy wanted Albus to come with him and wanted to just bring her... take her everywhere... she didn't like being locked away, but exposing even more people to the monster was even worse. And Albus's looks at her because he felt it was her fault he couldn't go... that he had to stay and keep her locked up. And everyone was yelling, and she'd just had enough... "I came here. Because I don't want to be a monster. And I don't want to be a witch. And here they can't make me. Here it can all go away..."
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Date: 2018-06-24 04:07 pm (UTC)Mother had been determined that if she wouldn't be a witch, she'd couldn't ever be anything else either... she had to be hidden and shut away because she was 'not well'. Ariana had seen the resentment Kendra pretended not to have - blaming her because Father had left. Because he'd hurt those Muggle boys. It's not like she wanted him to do that. She knew they were right to be afraid. After all, if there wasn't anything to be afraid of, her mother wouldn't have ended up dead. If she weren't a monster, they wouldn't have kept her confined like one. It's only in this place that she has a chance to be anything else. It's her magic that's bad and wrong, and here she can be rid of it.
"They kept me locked away at home, because they knew it was bad... even when they lied to me and said it wasn't. And after Mother died..." That Gellert boy wanted Albus to come with him and wanted to just bring her... take her everywhere... she didn't like being locked away, but exposing even more people to the monster was even worse. And Albus's looks at her because he felt it was her fault he couldn't go... that he had to stay and keep her locked up. And everyone was yelling, and she'd just had enough... "I came here. Because I don't want to be a monster. And I don't want to be a witch. And here they can't make me. Here it can all go away..."